Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I fear no evil; for you are with me; your rod and your staff -- they comfort me.
Psalm 23:4; from Psalm 23, lectionary text for Sunday, March 22, 2020
The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom, and the knowledge of the Holy One is insight.
Thinking much about fear this past week, particularly the relationship between fear and faith. I’m not the only one. The Washington Post reports that in a certain Bible app, ‘searches for “fear” went up by 167 percent last week, and “fear not” by 299 percent.’*
Institutions throughout my area — including the university where I teach — closed and moved work online. Churches closed too. More accurately, church buildings closed. ‘Church’ remained open, with the community’s worship and prayer and study moved online. News stories and social media feeds started covering this aspect of the coronavirus as a distinct thread within the larger tapestry of the new social pattern COVID is creating. Of the various slants relative to the closing of churches, one that continued to recur was the tension claimed between fear and faith. Most negatively, the relationship between fear and faith was presented as an intrinsic opposition, so that failure to gather physically for worship was failure of faith in God, elevating the power of the virus over the power of God. In a more benign form, fear was admitted as natural, a human condition that we could offer to the LORD in trust of God’s comfort and cure.
‘Fear not,’ God repeatedly instructs, from Genesis (15:1) through Revelation (1:17). ‘I will fear no evil,’ the psalmist sings, in laud and thanks of the LORD’s presence and comfort.
But: ‘The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom, and the knowledge of the Holy One is insight.’ The proverb offers fear in parallel with knowledge, not as something to be avoided.
Fear does not oppose fidelity. Rightly ordered, it is part of it.
Fear may be irresponsible or destructive — panic that destabilizes and debilitates individuals and communities. Yet I wonder whether our fear of fear, so rooted in our national ethos (‘We have nothing to fear but fear itself,’ FDR famously said) is depriving us of an important learning about ourselves as creatures and our place in creation. Fear reminds us that we are not in control. The Bible reminds us that we were never meant to be in control. Made in the image and likeness of God, yes; given ‘dominion’ over creation, yes. Just ‘a little lower than God,’ yes. But ‘like’ and ‘lower than’ God. Not God. We were never meant to be God. Fear reminds us that we are limited. Fear may allow us to recognize and admit, again as if for the first time, the power that is outside of us, the power that is other, the power that is beyond.
Perhaps this is the value in the practice of fear. Perhaps this is the lesson of a time such as this. The scope of the risk is unknown, at this point unknowable. We are required to acknowledge our ignorance and to admit our finitude. Even — effectively — forced to admit the fear that is the shadow side of so much of our bright life, the worry both quotidian and ultimate that we hide under the thrum of busy-ness, the hectic pace of work or play, the anxiety that comes out only sometimes, in the wee hours of the night when the surrounding dark seems vast and terrible. Daybreak comes, we push the night terrors down and away, and we spend the hours of light — again — acting as if we are in control, which pretense has as its implicit corollary, that we are God, or at least that we know God already so perfectly as to be able anticipate and respond to every circumstance.
The current pandemic proves the power of this virus. Fear of it is not faithlessness. Fear may be, instead, the beginning of the beginning of wisdom. As we acknowledge the fear of what is finite, as learn to revise our own actions in response to its power — a power as impersonal as a wave — we may begin to realize how to practice the fear of what is ultimate and infinite. Of Who is ultimate and infinite.
Fear does not oppose fidelity. Rightly ordered, it is part of it. It has the potential to teach. As we learn, may we be drawn further on and in to deeper and dearer relationship with God.
‘The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom, and the knowledge of the Holy One is insight’
*The Washington Post, ‘Worship goes virtual in age of social distancing,’ print 3/21/20